14C

 

“Is 14C your seat, Sir?”

 

In the next millisecond, this behind-the-scenes conversation took place:

“Mac, you worked hard to get that seat and you deserve it.  You see, your god DOES take care of those who ask for things.”

“How’s that?”

“Well, you do pray that you sit next to an empty seat so you don’t have to be bothered by someone next to you in these cramped airplanes, don’t you?”

“Well, yeh, sometimes.”

“See, your god has granted you want you wanted.  Now, that woman, who we shall just say, between us intelligent guys, is a little off her rocker, and you sure don’t want to have someone who is mentally unstable sitting next you, do you?”
”Well, no, not really.”

“So, there you have it. Answer ‘Yes’.”

 

 

Now, let me bring you back a few minutes in the waiting lounge at the Atlanta Airport to get onto Delta flight 782 heading to Austin, Texas.  I was on my way to visit Fort Hood, Texas, and had met a co-worker there who was traveling with me.  Sitting in the lounge (if you call those hard seats, a lounge), my co-worker pointed out an exceptionally obese woman, and said, “Now, I bet I wind up next to her.”  Smiling, I said, “Or me.”

 

Anyway, being in the prestigious Zone 2 for loading (whatever that means—has something to do with being a Medallion Member), my co-worker and I were able to board before most of the rest of the aircraft.  He had 16C, while I was two rows toward the front, in 14C.  Both aisle seats.  After I put my bag in the overhead, I sat down with no one in Seats A (window) or B (middle), and then kept a watch out to see if anyone would be sitting there.  OH-oh, a young gentlemen motioned that he had the window seat.  Well, that wasn’t TOO bad, as the center seat was still open.  So, I decided to do some reading.  I opened up a book that was given to me for my birthday, The Kingdom that Turned the World Upside Down, and started reading the first chapter. 

 

About that time, I heard this lady crying behind me (she was in 15C).  I thought that she might have hit her head while putting her bag in the overhead compartment, but I just ignored it and went back to reading my religious book.  (After all, if she WAS hurt, they had stewardesses who could help her.)

 

As the last few folks boarded, I finally realized, thank God, that no one was assigned the middle seat to my left.  This might be a good flight after all.  At that point, the lady was still wimpering, but a little louder.  A stewardess DID come to her and asked her if she was okay.  At this point, I realized that the lady was probably somewhat mentally handicapped.  She told the stewardess that she had no place to put her bag as the overhead was full, and HER middle row (15B) had someone sitting in it, so she couldn’t place her bag under that seat either.  The poor lady just didn’t know what to do.  Still crying, but I was just simply trying to ignore her wimpering and continued to read.  THAT was when I heard that question:  “Is 14C your seat, Sir?” 

 

Well, it was, so I listened to that millisecond conversation I was having inside my head, and said.  “Yes maam, it is.”  And it was no lie, I did have the correct seat.  Luckily, a steward also came up at that time and said that there was a seat in first class where she could sit and would have place for her bag, and have enough room where she wouldn’t be pressured by people all around her.

 

At first, I sighed a sigh of relief, and then it hit me, hard.  WHAT had I just done?  I had acted just the opposite of the way the person I was reading about would have.  Instead of saying:  “Yes maam, it is.”, I knew immediately I should have said:  “Yes maam, it is, but if she needs a seat with space beside her, take mine.  I will sit somewhere else.” 

 

I was so ashamed that I pondered my actions the rest of that flight.  I had just committed a whole rash of sins, starting with hatred toward others, not loving my neighbor, selfishness, greed, and a list of others, ending in pride.  I had violated both of the greatest and the next greatest commandments.  As Paul said, “What a wretched man I am.”  I could feel the eyes of Jesus on me the rest of the time until I prayed to Him for forgiveness.  How COULD I be so insensitive to the weak?  How COULD “I”, a CHRISTIAN (yeh, right), turn a deaf ear to someone obviously in need?  I was JUST like the Levite and the Pharisee who went out of their way to help the poor, beaten up beggar.  Same scenario, different millennium.  

 

I also had just passed up one of the perfect opportunities that God puts in front of me all the time.  In His test of me, He said, “Here Mac.  Here is a crying lady and no one is helping.  Here is an opportunity for you to prove to my Son that you DO love Him, simply by offering to give up your seat to someone obviously distressed.”  Well, I failed that test---no doubt about that.  I would have probably received a 14”F” as a grade.  And 14F would have been OUTSIDE that airplane as there were only 5 seats per row. 

 

I just got into the hotel and will be going out to dinner with my co-workers shortly, but I just had to write this to all my friends to let you know what kind of a person I really am.  I am so ashamed of myself that I am now in tears.  I ask each of you to pray for me tonight before you go to bed (no matter what day you get this email).

 

I DO NOT want anyone to reply to it, telling me “Oh, you are SO spiritual for having recognized your faults and telling us your story.”  First of all, I am NOT spiritual, or I would have done something for the poor lady.  Second of all, I do not deserve ANY praise at all…as a ‘Christian’, I should have reacted 180 degrees differently.  So, please, don’t write….just know that I am wretched.  But DO pray for me though….I need it badly. 

 

I am not sure how any of you would have acted in this situation.  I hope and pray that it would have been completely different.  I just finished reading a book recommended by Les Johnson,  It’s Not About Me.   In it, the author talks a lot about being humble.  In this situation, I should have been humble---obviously, I didn’t practice what I had just learned.  In the book I read on the rest of the flight, Chapter 8, which I will begin reading later this evening, is in Part 2 (The Big Stumbling Block) of the book, and is titled “Love my enemies?” (with a question mark).  The answer to that question for me is obvious—“No”---I can’t even love my neighbor.   Please help by praying.

 

Mac